A lot has changed for me within the last 5 months. I’ve made mistakes and I’ve learned. I’ve gained friends and lost a few. But the one thing that I promised myself I would do was change. Change myself to be a human being that I could be proud of. I am not proud of myself nor some of the things I’ve said and some of the things I’ve done. Today will be the day that I stick to my plan, and I make things happen. If it hurts me or not, this is life. You either swim or you drown.
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My goals for [kirsten] 2009
- Become at peace with myself so I can be at peace with the world.
- Become a better person for myself.
- Find a new job, so I can do better at self-reliance.
- Respect my relationships I have with other people, make the ones stronger that need to be and maintain the ones that are great.
- Do more for the people that do everything for me.
- Love unconditionally, and love fairly.
- Learn to enjoy the little things, and sometimes just let the bad things go.
Those are a few things I’m going to try to do to better myself as a human being.
Today is the first day of change…
I have been thinking a lot about my next tattoo [everyone is right they are addicting]. I have decided upon a quote by Ghandi, “My life is my message”. And when I truly honestly think about it I am not leaving any message for my life. I am doing nothing, nothing at all. The more I read the more I think about Ghandi, and all the things he accomplished by being a peaceful passive human being.
So I say today, in the words of Ghandi himself “Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever.” It is the only thing we can do. And who knows what will happen tomorrow.
I will become the person I wish to see in the world. And let go of all things in the past for they do not change what will be tomorrow.
